Wrong Thing Again

Ready to Start

i've been reading blogs and sites on travelling and backpacking just now...

It's nearly half a year and i have yet to set up my mind for a destination to travel to.

There's some really great blogs like SoloTravel etc.

Read some great tips and advices concerning backpacking. My greatest aim is to travel abroad and India will be one of my top must-go destination for now.

Roughly two years ago, i met this Asian-Canadian monk in SKE who told me about his life-changing trips that eventually changed his life.

By that time i was extremely depressed, all i can think about is an escapade.

The idea of travelling to someplace new is further strengthened by Bhante Kovida's words.

i've promise myself since then, that after STPM's over i will backpack.

However, i've nil solo travel experience. And my un-proactive ways of communicating will not help me much, even though i'm convince that i have relatively good managing skills on myself.

So with all these info i've gathered, i decided to start from my homeland first.

To gather my friends to join will be a BIG problem.

To be honest not all are cooperative, and i believe not all of them will have the same interest and passion as some of us.

i can already see some of their sour faces and uncoperative stances or un-enthusiasm that may ruin the whole thing, not to be bitter but i can surely confirm that this will happen.

And so i've backed myself up that if nothing could work, then i will travel solo.

Life's too short to wait.

I never will know whether this dream to travel this year could be fulfilled.

Some chances can only appear once in your life.

i'm looking forward to the sunrise of another day.

Grasp every possibility in yourself so that you feel accomplished.

Our lives plays tricks on us so that we feel empty in the end.

Fill the emptiness with self-enrichments.

Then life will be worth the journey.

Next Stop

Life will reach a turning point someday.

I'm gearing in for both the better and the worse.

As I approach 20, there's still so many that I do not know about myself: who and what I am capable of.

So much to know about.

But it's also not just about yourself, but around yourself.

I want to explore. I want to discover.

This sensation I had early last year still swirl in my mind.

I promised myself to travel, to really know myself.

And I'm gearing in for the latter as well, now.

另一个我

十年前外婆牵着我走，十年后我牵着她走

十年前外婆用脚踏车载我去补习，十年后外婆连走都会喘了

十年前外婆带我去看病，十年后是我带她去看病

十年前外婆不辞劳苦地陪伴我，十年后我只想和朋友作伴

在成长的过程中，

我逐渐失去了纯真和无私的情感，

换来的是那将引入社会的无情和自我，

但我不希望自己忘了自己

变成另一个我

嗨你，切记！

What do i want in life...??

To Do's After STPM

1) Learn music

2) Learn to dance

3) Learn swimming

4) Teach

5) Volunteer at SKE every morning

6) Exercise nearly every day

7) Roadtrips with friends

8) Self-discovery journey

Things done/doing: #4 and #5

Yet to do: All of the above except #4 and #5

Hence, your success in managing your life / lead the life you desire:

25%

December '10

The month starts off shakily as we all had to endure STPM, the toughest one that brought me (us) down like a pulpbag. Stress, worries, anxiety and anticipation all mixed up together in my head, creating a brainstorm of messed-up feelings.

Sometimes i wonder if there could be

a shut down/restart button on me so i can temporarily disconnect to the world outside, recharge myself and bounce back again.

I could never forget those days studying in Wan Sim's place together, where we mixed up chill time with study, which affects us cuz by the end of the day you don't acquire much inputs.

We chatted, sang, experimented with the music instruments and made frequent visits to Patisfrance.

Even though knowing that this is gonna take a hug

e toll on us, somehow i didn't care much about it. I was GIVING UP already, partially.

By the end of the day, when the clock strikes 9:45, and Chemistry 1 ended. I felt NOTHING.

Not even a sigh of relief. Plain emptiness. Until today, i still couldn't figure out the reason why.

All the outings into Dreambox and gathering at Li-Za's home didn't even lift me up much.

It was also this month where we went to Sunway for a rather mediocre trip but nevertheless necessary because it makes us know each other more.

Then Sang Tuan and i went for the job interview as primary tuition teacher at Semabok, which is funny cuz he's the one who introduced me yet in the end i was the one hired. Still feel a little bad until today as he's still jobless.

Initially, i was about to work as a waiter with Mel at Geographer, yet in the end she will be the one working there herself. Pity her cuz working in the service sector alone without any of your known friends there can be very frustrating. An

d yeah, lol u made me so awkwardly embarrassed when even Joanne and ya Mum knows that.

With most of us working, while others choose to be jobless.

All of us went into a near complete hiatus, almost disconnected.

Meet ups would be frequently interrupted and be disorganised.

The notion of being together more often after STPM is a BIG FAT LIE we created unconsciously and be eaten by it.

Still, we took time out and celebrated New Year's Eve in Everly's Resort.

Minus the crowd and huge atmosphere, it is a HIT for me, Vince,

Long Choy, Ben, Wen Chiang as we marked our wishes on the wet sand near the resort's beach.

Mine was something bout having wisdom and finding true happiness, with a John Lennon's peace sign near it. You know, the cliche stuffs like a young activist.

Ben's about being a pilot; LC obviously a superstar; Vince's if not mistaken is finding love; WC's i couldn't remember as he and LC pant around recording.

Then a group hug haha.

And i went out with Jessline, Wen Yee and Ru Hui to Portugese Settlement for the most fun Christmas celebration ever.

Can't these moments just last any longer? =)