What do i want in life...??

To Do's After STPM

1) Learn music

2) Learn to dance

3) Learn swimming

4) Teach

5) Volunteer at SKE every morning

6) Exercise nearly every day

7) Roadtrips with friends

8) Self-discovery journey

Things done/doing: #4 and #5

Yet to do: All of the above except #4 and #5

Hence, your success in managing your life / lead the life you desire:

25%

December '10

The month starts off shakily as we all had to endure STPM, the toughest one that brought me (us) down like a pulpbag. Stress, worries, anxiety and anticipation all mixed up together in my head, creating a brainstorm of messed-up feelings.

Sometimes i wonder if there could be

a shut down/restart button on me so i can temporarily disconnect to the world outside, recharge myself and bounce back again.

I could never forget those days studying in Wan Sim's place together, where we mixed up chill time with study, which affects us cuz by the end of the day you don't acquire much inputs.

We chatted, sang, experimented with the music instruments and made frequent visits to Patisfrance.

Even though knowing that this is gonna take a hug

e toll on us, somehow i didn't care much about it. I was GIVING UP already, partially.

By the end of the day, when the clock strikes 9:45, and Chemistry 1 ended. I felt NOTHING.

Not even a sigh of relief. Plain emptiness. Until today, i still couldn't figure out the reason why.

All the outings into Dreambox and gathering at Li-Za's home didn't even lift me up much.

It was also this month where we went to Sunway for a rather mediocre trip but nevertheless necessary because it makes us know each other more.

Then Sang Tuan and i went for the job interview as primary tuition teacher at Semabok, which is funny cuz he's the one who introduced me yet in the end i was the one hired. Still feel a little bad until today as he's still jobless.

Initially, i was about to work as a waiter with Mel at Geographer, yet in the end she will be the one working there herself. Pity her cuz working in the service sector alone without any of your known friends there can be very frustrating. An

d yeah, lol u made me so awkwardly embarrassed when even Joanne and ya Mum knows that.

With most of us working, while others choose to be jobless.

All of us went into a near complete hiatus, almost disconnected.

Meet ups would be frequently interrupted and be disorganised.

The notion of being together more often after STPM is a BIG FAT LIE we created unconsciously and be eaten by it.

Still, we took time out and celebrated New Year's Eve in Everly's Resort.

Minus the crowd and huge atmosphere, it is a HIT for me, Vince,

Long Choy, Ben, Wen Chiang as we marked our wishes on the wet sand near the resort's beach.

Mine was something bout having wisdom and finding true happiness, with a John Lennon's peace sign near it. You know, the cliche stuffs like a young activist.

Ben's about being a pilot; LC obviously a superstar; Vince's if not mistaken is finding love; WC's i couldn't remember as he and LC pant around recording.

Then a group hug haha.

And i went out with Jessline, Wen Yee and Ru Hui to Portugese Settlement for the most fun Christmas celebration ever.

Can't these moments just last any longer? =)

So Far...

... life has been kind to me lately.

More ups than downs so far.

Lucky for the rightly wrong reasons that it felt right.

Blessed with things i do not think i deserve for.

And i know because of these, i will neglect people around me more; and being ignorant than i used to be.

So now, i will remind myself to not forget what i am here for.

Because i have met the most wonderful friends in my life. Been through the toughest, craziest and memorable times with them while remaining happy and blessed.

Recovering from the devastating family issue i've been through while remaining largely intact with my family members.

While found the probably best part-time job i could ever asked for, meeting wonderful kids which can be sweet and horrible at the same time, yet i believe will change me for the better.

This is my story. A new life, i believe. New directions.